Release my Heart

Bubbles of nerves boil in my chest
Flushing into my brain.
All i want is to do my best 
But right now i feel insane.

The words to express how i feel 
They are stuck, stuck in my throat
Clamped down by the toughest seal 
Trying to help me cope.

Not feeling is my living 
Distraction is my saviour 
Strength is what i am giving 
To the worst kind of behaviour.

I feel like there is some dark secret 
To explain how i act and feel
My kind is full of bleakness
Sometimes i struggle to see what's real.

What's real is my friendships
And the possibility of starting a anew 
A chance to be eccentric 
And to tell my past adieu.

So i say hello to my new lifestyle 
To be mindful and use meditation
To find my style 
And say goodbye to procrastination.